You not being in my life sucks.
You not being there for me when I need you the most sucks.
My heart can’t let you go. I can’t let you go. I just don’t want to.
Knowing that you’ve moved on, hurts so much.
I cry so much on the inside, hearing that you don’t love me anymore.
Reading that your feelings for me are completely dead.
I got so attached to you, now that you’re gone, outta my life…
I don’t know anyrhing anymore. Once you left, the love we had died for you.
Once our lov died, deep down inside me died along with it.
Knowing that there is someone else… is horrible.
I take deep breaths and close my eyes.
i simply just want to crawl in my bed and cry myself to sleep, like usual.
I’ve been doing so for awhile now.
You are worth it all, every pain, every tear drop, but I don’t know much anymore.
Everyone eventually leaves me.. I was used to it, but you? i can’t help it.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what to say anymore.

All I know is

• I miss you!
• I love you.
• & I do and have meant every single thing I ever said to you too<3

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keepthatonthejl:

hai new followers, i’m jojo and i’d love introductions, that would be nice <3

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I am in a Lost World. Living in a False World. A place where I can no longer call ‘my home.’ I have no home. I have nothing left. Everything, my emotions, my love, my happiness, my everything, gone. Vanished into thin-air. Why? Because you were my everything. And without you in my world, I have nothing. I am left with nothing now. I am just sitting on this chair rotting away like a dead corpse…

I am alone.

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I’m pretty persistent. Sometimes Patient, like everyone else, but due to your actions and the way you simply talk to me now, It isn’t the same. I don’t know if it’s best if i quit wasting your time or what. No, I am not saying that I am wasting my time, but I don’t like to give up on people. It’s not the same anymore. I hate that so much. I miss you the point where I’m going crazy. I want things to be the way they used to be, I didn’t do anything to deserve this, any of this.I want to move on. I just really don’t know how to cope with things about you at this point. You not talking to me hurts because you’ve left me lost in an unwanted-like world. I feel retarded for making this post, but it’s hard, everything is harder now that you’re no longer in my life. I felt like I was the luckiest and happiest girl to be in a relationship with a guy like you, but now I’m sad, depressed most of the time, thinking about you, I don’t know what to do anymore. I wish God could tell me my fate right now.. Night

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I’d rather still have you in my life as a friend then not have you in it at all. ):

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Do you remember when I said I would always be there for you? Ever since we started talking, I told you that I would be here for you no matter what. You never realize that you could have taken advantage of that. I fell in love with you, but I guess the feelings weren’t mutual. I don’t know how to deal with this empty-black hole that is missing right now. I don’t know how to cope with this hurting inside. It is never too late for anything. I don’t know if i’m dreaming or maybe I’m going crazy, but I can’t believe I’m saying this… I still love you, til this day…. and this love was so unpredictable. :(

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Someday you’ll miss me like I miss you. Someday you’ll need me like I need you right now. And you’ll love me and feel the way I do, Just one day…. I’ll simply keep waiting patiently for that time to come, I guess.. let’s just hope when that time comes, it won’t be too late for us then.

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Go ahead, I dare you. Try to get at my boyfriend, Go ahead! Lay yo nastyass STD/HIV havin’ ass motherfuckin’ fingers on my baby, he don’t want you, he made damn well you know that too, he aint like them other guys who want some, he’s mine! you don’t fuck with what’s mine. one day when I head up there in the 626’s, i’m for sure gon find yo ass and then i’ma busta cap in yo ass; no doubt about that! try me ratchet, try me! I dare yous.
Get at me thoo, no lie! -,- nasty havin’ desparateass bitches. Finna get down.

I am giving up on everything. I am not going to try as much as I am now, I am not going to be sweet, I am not going to tell you I love you because I really can’t say that I do now. I am not going to do anythin, but let you make your move. I am done trying to please only you. In order for a relationship to work ,it is a two-way street, Not just YOUR way. I only want you to change for the better, clearly not to harm you, but since you say that you’re not going to change for me or anyone, I won’t either. I am going to be me. Yeah, You didn’t tell me or force me to stop being me, but I want to change for you because I want you to trust me, I want you to see how much you mean to me. Obviously, It seems to me that I don’t mean much, possibly nothing, to you if you aren’t willing to change for me and it’s not even that hard either, but all well. I don’t know what else to say anymore to you. You make all the choices and decisions in this relationship, I have no say in anything. And your philosophy is pathetic, Being an asshole does not mean you will get girls. It isn’t cute. I mean when you play mean in a cutsie way, then it’s okay, but never an asshole. You take things way to far now. You think girls will stay, want to be in a relationship with an asshole? Honestly, do you think anyone would want to be around you if you’re constantly an asshole? Trust me, no one or even a girl will ever want that. No one wants to be mistreated. If they do or if you find a girl who does, please tell her she needs some medical assistance because clearly there is something wrong with her. She must be blind or really stupid not to see that it’s wrong. But as of right now, You being an asshole to me, is over with. NO MORE!! I AM NOT HAVING IT AT ALL! I told you, I have a zero tolerance for assholes. And I’ve repeated that several times so now I’m done repeating it. No more chances, No more. I want a boyfriend who will care for me at all times, love me, respect me and my wishes, wants to do the things I’d liked to do when we hang and not just everything about him

Officially over all this stupid unecessary bullshit, Done, UGH! asdfghjkl; Like I can’t even sleep, I’m constantly up and night while you’re away in your bed, tucked in, settled, and I’m over here on my bed, just chilling, looking up on my ceiling as I just think about this and other things. If you aren’t going to try then there is no point of me being with you or stay with you since talking about things don’t help. You don’t need me at all. All you need are your friends and video games to be there for you. I don’t know how it’s soooo easy for you to go to sleep and not think about everything that had went. Show me you care and that you really love me by doing so, don’t just say it. Prove it to me, Let me know…….. -,-

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keepthatonthe-jl:

Women should be treated as a Queen by her handsome Prince.

Men should be treated as a Kind by his beloeved Queen.

But now a days, People don’t realize that or seem to care since their pride, big ego, and definitely their stubbornness gets in the way of it everything. It sucks a lot!

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Words are like Promises. If you can’t keep them, Don’t make them. Simple.

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I dislike waiting for anything. I don’t know what it is, perhaps it’s because I am definitely an impatientass, but certain things I simply can not stand to wait. I want to know immediately. I know no one ever gets everything their way.. I guess..UGH missing my babe right now.. he takes foreeever to shower -____-

I don’t like the double standards you give me. I don’t like the way you treat me. I don’t like the way you talk to me when you are mad especially when you are giving me attitude. Those are some of the things you say when we fight or have an argument. I say the exact same things, you just don’t care when it is coming from me. I don’t like how you act as if you are the relationship.

 No one is perfect, We both fucked up! You think you are right constanatly which i would disagree with on so many levels. Excuse me, used to be relationship. I don’t like how I keep trying and kept on being persistent with you even though things were clearly not my fault. I did not need to apologize to you, but I did. I did not need to cry, but I did. I did not need to repeat myself or explain my reasons more than once, but I did. I kept trying. You stopped.

I don’t know if you deserve another chance. It’s not the first time you’ve treated nor talked to me badly. It’s a constant thing whenever you’re upset or annoyed. I dislike it with a passion. Usually, I’d be over it, after you apologize about it. But this time… I don’t think I want you back in my life. You’ve been so fucking rude to me, I do not know how to deal with that. I have not seen this side of you EVER! And quite frankly, i do not want to encounter it ever again.

 You either change with me and stay with me or you can leave being the same guy you are now, the same mean, rude, inconsiderate, and unreasonable person, or be with me, I hope you think cautiously and make the right choice. I don’t know anymore. I do not have anything to say. You’ve hurt me so many times, but this time it has officially left a big scar and I don’t know if it’ll go away or not….

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